Tuesday, April 1, 2014

One year on your Journey

April 1st, 2014

One year ago today, your dad and I were told you had Leukemia, it wouldn't be until April 3rd that we had your official diagnosis.  I will never forgot the day.  I can actually still remember the sounds, the room, the way we all sat in your hospital room.  Dr. Anderson had given us an answer to the weeks of unknown symptoms and sickness.  There was a small sense of relief as we finally knew what was attacking your body, we had a protocol to follow and your treatment plan.  I didn't know what to think...will it work?  What would chemo be like?  How in the h*ll were we going to get through this?

Guess what!  We made it!  A year ago we cried in your hospital room as we watched your body suffer with sickness and today I watch you run around our house, full of energy and life.  I will never forget what we have been through this past year, but I know that I need to focus on our future because we are so lucky to have completed your protocol with 100% success.

I have to be honest, these few days have been really tough.  I am always haunted by the low days in the hospital and the beginning of your treatment had to be the absolute lowest.  I have time now, to reflect our time last year and I still don't know how we ever made it through.  I know that we had some amazing family and friends by our sides and could not have done it without them.  But still, how did we really cope?  We were so numb to everything and just went through the emotions.  I still know we are working through some of the bumps and bruises we encountered on our way.  I worry about how some of our choices affected you and your sisters. I guess only time will tell and I try telling myself that it just made it us all stronger in many different ways.

Today, April 1st, 2014, we will celebrate many positive things.  First and foremost, you are 100% cancer free!!!  We are blessed with an amazing family that has only become stronger throughout the year.  We celebrate that our focus this summer is where and when we can go camping or to the cabin, instead of when your next round of chemo starts.  We celebrate that you need a haircut...hooray!  We celebrate that your counts should be recovered enough by May and you can start attending public places, such as school.  Lastly, we celebrate that our family is healthy, all together and thriving and I can't wish for much more than that!!

Here is a picture of you one year ago today.  It was the start to your journey...


  

Here are pictures, a year later.  I wanted to take a picture with your beaded journey, as it is a great visual reminder of your last year.




\Love you more than you will ever know,

Mom

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