Today marks the two year anniversary since you were diagnosed. I don't know if that is really an anniversary, as we usually celebrate anniversaries but April 1st, 2013 will never be forgotten by your dad and I. It is more of a day to count our blessings, give you an extra hug and cuddle and remember what you went through and how you not only survived but kick cancer's butt!
March is still a difficult month for me and I know that as the years pass some of the old feelings will start to fade, but two years later and I still feel some of the old memories come back. I am reminded by the signs of spring as well as the preparation for Easter. Usually these are times to be excited for, but I still struggle to look forward to these signs because spring 2013 was the worst time of our lives. I need to remember that we are past all the bad times and if I need to start recognizing the future rather than dwelling in the past.
Today, if anyone would look at you they would never guess what you have lived through or even better, SURVIVED through. Your boundless energy and passion for life is how you live life everyday. We know that you are getting your strength back and can keep up with the kids your own age. Soccer season is starting again for your sisters and no matter how much I tried to convince you to try another spring sport, because soccer requires strong legs and endurance, you are set on playing. The other day you had all your soccer gear on and wanted to know how many days until soccer starts, I love you enthusiasm and now you will be an amazing soccer star!
This January you had your appointment in Calgary where they completed all the regular tests, MRI, x-rays, ECHO, ultrasound and of course blood work. All your tests came back clear! You still need to have an appointment in Calgary every 3 months, but you will only require an examination by your Oncologist and blood work, no more big tests! This is a huge milestone for you and I love that you will not have to endure the days of waiting for all the appointments. However, it feels like a security blanket has been ripped away from me. There is a part of me that awaits the results and is assured that all is good, hopefully the blood work is enough to elevate some of the anxiousness.
We will continue on your journey with you. Right now, you refer to "having cancer" as a temporary illness that you had and overcame and it is the only reason why you have to have a needle every couple of months. I am glad that you were too young to have any memories of the "bad" and simply see it as something that marks a time in our lives. I pray everyday that it stays this way for you and that you will never have to relive any of those experiences. We are truly blessed and I will never take life for granted again.
Love you to the moon and back,
Mom
What a change 2 years makes!
Here is a picture of you and dad out for a bike ride. You are loving the spring weather!
